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Dear Elmo ,

I know you are reading and catching up every entry . The only thing I want you to know that I try hardly to win your heart back . Even if I feel like I will never get the chance back but there is no wrong in trying right ? To just know that you will always be deep in the heart and someday when I get someone to replace your place dont worry because for all this time you are the only best thing ever happened to me .


Honestly , I miss all about us all about you . And I miss talking to someone which are everything to me . Talk about memories there are a lot of it I cant just describe . Just let it be for you and me . I still got our picture , the birthday present , your message , the train's ticket , the song and anything that reminds me of you .


I just need a thing .


Explain me , why you go ?

Flash - back

Looking back on everything , I still remember his smile . I wish things didn't end so soon , and turn back time for a while . No matter how much it hurts , I still love him so . A part of me needs him so much , Can't seem to let him go . Knowing I won't be able to see him ,Makes my heart cry out in pain . I can't believe we won't talk anymore . The thought makes me wanna go insane . He was my reason for waking up . For the smile you see on my face . Going a single day without him,
makes me feel so out of place . I was afraid of opening up . Now I'm afraid of the next day . Whenever I see him one last time , i'm terrified of what he may say . I know tomorrow will hurt , But the tears will fade away . Life is too short for regrets . There will be a brighter day . But when I see him one last time , I won't know what to do ? *sigh*

When he tells me that last goodbye , I'll whisper , "I already miss you.."

Just sit back and smile .

No need for revenge -

Just sit back and wait . Those that hurt you will eventually screw up all by themselves .

And if you are lucky , God will let you watch :)

If only ,

Kalau lah segalanya semudah ini .

Pastinya banyak VCD player di rumah aku .

Penakut

Aku cuba fahamkan setiap gambar dalam hidup ,
kerana di setiap gambar, ada lagu .

Sia sia

Kalau bunuh diri tu tak berdosa , I'll choose that way . I'm still confuse . Hidup ini simple . Tapi masalah akan datang bertalu - talu . Kita manusia . Sebab tu Allah bagi akal untuk berfikir .

Sayang , I tak boleh macam ni lagi . I'm not obses . Syok sendiri . But I really love you .
Sayang , kita dah lama berkawan . Teman bergaduh , merajuk , sayang and semuanya .

Tapi sampai bila macam ni ? *sigh*
I'm tired .

And by than I'm sure I'll be pretending that everything is allright . I can't find the word to tell you . I don't want to be alone . But now I fell like I don't know you .

I wish that you were with me . But we stuck because we are too stupid .

Can you hear me crying ?

For you only you

Sumpah aku benci dengan kau . Aku benci sebab aku tak dapat lupakan kau . Aku benci tak dapat nak lupa mata kau bila pandang aku . Aku benci tak dapat lupa senyuman kau bila jumpa something yang interesting like a children . Aku benci tak dapa lupa petemuan pertama kau dengan aku . Aku benci tak dapat lupa kehangatan tangan kau bila kau pimpin tangan aku ke setiap penjuru jalan yang kita pernah lalui . Aku benci tak dapat lupa suara kau yang senantiasa aku titipkan pada setiap nafas aku . Aku benci tak dapat lupa KAU ! in every side of view or everywhere I go . I’m hatin myself because can’t help to get through all of this. Hidup makin hari makin celaka . Bila agak agak benda celaka ni nak pergi vacation ?

Biar tua berilmu

Jika aku diberi peluang menjadi orang tua, maka aku berdoa agar tidak mahu menjadi orang tua yang menunjuk pandai kepada orang muda .

Maaf

A good apology has three parts :

• I'm sorry .
  
• It's my fault .
• What can I do to make it right ?

Which one is yours ? Mine ? none that are stated above . Ego much ? *sigh*

But , slowly you will understand by your own . Relationship aren't about being perfect . It's about losing yourself in love and letting go of your insecurities . I mean in good way insecurities . Not too much over the border/line . To grow as a person and find about yourself that you can only discover when you're with special person .

By-the-way , special person is also has 3 parts :

• lover
• family
• friends

The best part of being flawed is trying to become better . Not because you strive for perfection but because you strive to see your loved one happy and you do everything and anything to make sure it happen . And miracle happen . * wink wink wink wink *

Time

I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think , all the walks I want to take , all the books I want to read , and all the friends I want to see .

Sedih

Sedih itu masih ada .Tapi tak tahu macam mana nak cakap .Tak tahu macam mana nak luah .Tak tahu macam mana nak ludah .

Jadi aku dakap dan gantikan dengan senyuman aku yang paling manis .