Frustrated

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Cukuplah sekadar jaga hati aku . Walaupun kau perkatakan kepada orang lain , tetapi aku tetap terasa apa yg perkatakan . Aku juga manusia biasa . Orang yg sangat rapat dengan kau . Aku cuba untuk hadapi semua segala apa yang kau caci tapi bagi aku , ini semakin melampau . Kau tak bertanya mengapa tetapi terus membuat andaian sendiri . Aku menjadi semakin fed-up and fed-up .

Kenapa kau tak pernah bertanya terlebih dahulu sebelum mencaci membabi buta macam itu . Kenapa ? Kenapa ? Kenapa ?

I WILL BE SILENT FOR A LONG TIME .

sing to me the

Have you ever ,

Felt down at one time and hoping to cheer you up or even to going with the flow of you sadness , you hope for a song you wishes for to hear at that time . Have you ? Have you ?

I AM !

And I'm doing it right now . I rushed back from class and back to my room , awkwardly open my laptop just to hear the songs that calm you down . It given you a feeling of numb . You will never felt anything . And all you think is the songs and the lyrics that calm you down .


Have you ever ,

You are doing something for example drying your hair or even look at the mirror , suddenly you're crying . Have you ? Have you ?

I AM !

The reason is you are in a middle of remembering someone or something that making you sad or maybe happy . It was the moments of precious or bad moments that will suddenly making your brain sending the message to the our senses .

RED RED RED AND REDDDDDDDD !

Okay ! now start read my post with laugh ! Puh-leaseeeeeeeee do that first . I don't even know why it keeps me laughing all night . Thanks to Syazwani fadzil actually ! You make me laughing and laughing again . Okay ! Dah mcm lirik lagu dekat blog aku ni dah . Errrr

Baca ni ! Baca ni ! Baca ni ! Baca ni ! Baca ni ! Baca ni ! Baca ni ! Baca ni ! Baca ni ! Baca ni !Baca ni

sila klik gambar untuk besarkan . sekian terima kasih

Okay aku tak tahu kenapa aku keep gelak pasal status dia ni ! hahahahaha. bayangkan weh ! almost 19th yearssssssssssssssss ! OH-MYYYYYY- GUCCIIIIIIIIII !


Selama 5 tahun aku belajar dekat sekolah aku TARCISIAN CONVENT , tak pernah aku dengar , nampak , lihat , bau atau rasa sendiri lah BLUE HOUSE IS THE CHAMPION ! TAK PERNAH OKAY ! LANGSUNG TAK PERNAH ! pathetic kan ? tapiiiiiiiiiiiiii at least every year diorang ada maskot yang sangat lawa *smile* ( sekadar ayat menapis rasa ) * laugh *

Aku sebagai salah seorang bekas ahli RED HOUSE , ingin mengucapkan TAKZIAHHH . err silap TAHNIAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
* pom pom pom pom pe rapp pamm pam pam pom pom * ( bunga api lah ! )

Cemburu

Aku tak tahu kenapa tajuk post aku kali ini macama ni . Macam nampak aku marah je bila baca tajuk post kali ni . Errr . Aku tak marah but maybe a lil bit jealous and maybeeeeee maybe okay a lil bit mad .

Aku tak tahu kenapa aku berperasaan macam ni . Supposely I should be happy . Maybe I just felt left out . Or maybe I just jealous . OHHHHMYYYYGESHHHHHHHH ! I don't ever know what I'm feeling right now .

Aku tahu kau sedang bergembira sekarang . Mungkin aku marah sebab kau dah jarang contact dengan aku . Mungkin aku jeles sebab kau sedang gembira dan aku pula mengharapkan kau akan kongsi kegembiraan kau dengan aku . Mungkin aku berasa begitu . Sebab aku pun tak tahu apa yang aku rasa sebenarnya .

Aku cemburu bila kau dapat pergi tempat tempat yang aku nak pergi dulu . Tapi kau dah pergi dulu . Aku cemburu bila kau sangat bahagia sekarang daripada kau yang dulu selalu call aku bila sedih . Aku ni terlebih pathetic actually . Tapi aku gembira dengan apa yang kau ada sekarang daripada kau yang dulu . Dan aku harap kau akan senantiasa macama tue .

Aku doakan yang terbaik untuk kau dear goodfriend (:

goods sold

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Once upon a time

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I just love this words " Once upon a time " . Like a fairytale ! Err .

mama

" Mom " . There words that I can't describe how grateful I am to have a chance to say It . One word , Many definition . If I ask you , What would you be when your growth up ?
Police , Teacher , Doctor ( it was a common answer )

BUT

I would say to be like my MOM . The one that lost a lot of blood just to give a birth of you . The one that feed you well enough with their milk . The one that hold you when your cold . The one that wipe your tears when your crying . The one and only can solve all the problems that you can't . The one that hold your hands when you're walking . It was HER .

BUT there is no way I can't be like HER .

21 years I managed to see HER face every moments I open my eyes . I'm grateful of it . Alhamdulillah . There is a million words that can describe Her .

Mama ,

You means a lot to me . Through the years pass by , I managed to organized my life by your help . You wrinkles on your faces, means how struggle you are to raise us . Your smile , means how happy your are still breathing with us . Your wrinkles on your hands , means how much it help to fed us .

Mama ,

Forgive me for being a bad . Forgive me if I ever lie to you . Forgive me if I'm using your money for the bad things . Forgive me if I was ever hurt you . Forgive me if I was the one making you cry . Forgive me for all the things that making I done making you hurt .

Sincerely from your daughter ,

I LOVE YOU MAMA !

p/s : syurga di telapak kaki ibu (:

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My weight keep growing for time-to-time and i'm HATE IT ! I wanna be like before . My mind keeps depressed so the only thing that I can do to rejuvenate myself is by EATING ! EAT EAT AND EAT . And now I'm kinda worried of myself *sigh*

• I shouldn't eat late night .
  
• I shouldn't eat junkfood more than healthy food .
• I have to do more exercise than more sleep .

p/s : Don't you think I'm toooo old and lame to worrying about my weight ? errrr

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He's not perfect , I'm aren't either and the two of you will NEVER be perfect . But if he can make you laugh at least once , causes you to think twice , and if he admits to being human and making mistakes , hold onto him and give him the most you can . Don't analyze it . Smile when he makes you HAPPY . Yell when he makes you MAD and MISS him when his not there . Because perfect guys DON'T exist but there is ONE GUY that is always perfect FOR YOU .

REMEMBER IT !

Mood

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Lately ni mood aku tak berapa okay . Nak kata nak period , tak juga sebab rasanya due date aku lambat lagi . Tapi mungkin sebab aku terlampau stress . Lately ni aku banyak fikir . Kelas was like fuckin hate ! Aku cuba untuk pergi semua kelas tapi lecterur was like fucking haters ! ergh !

I'm soo stressfull !Kelas FULL ! and banyak yang clash . Aku terpaksa naik turun akademik to solve it . But still the same . What theeeeee HHHHHHHHH punya koordinator UITM ! grrr

Tambah stressful lagiiiiiiii bila hamster aku mati ( shizue ) . Hilang sorang teman aku nak bermain . erghhh ! Dahlah tak dapat tanam so , terpaksa buang dalam tong sampah je . Which is I put in a bag of plastic 1st . But still sedih gila :(


I have to make it to HOMMIEEEEEE this weekend . I really need the smell of my bed . I'm so stressful of everything here .

Without you , I'm not here . I won't be born . I don't know how many times I make you dissapointed and sad because of me . I'm so sorry . I really fell guilty . You know I'm sad and crying im my heart when I make you dissapointed .

BUT

for sure , someday , I really want to make you HAPPY and proud of me . Believe me MOM and DAD , It's not a lie , It's a promise from your child

Nikah binti Kahwin

Disebabkan ini cuti sekolah and semestinya korang mesti full of invitation for wedding kan ? kan ? And i'm gonna talk about it .

Have you ever wondered " Is married is happy ending or not ? " nahhhh . I will say YES . It will surely happy ending . Klau tak buat apa nak kahwin kan ? It will be surely challenging but rather than that , married people get through of it together .

Aku selalu tengok orang angkat nikah . It's quite a fairytale actually . errr . sebenanya semua nikah kahwin aku pergi aku anggap macam fairytale . * sigh * . Ye lah ! If someone is getting married to someone , bukan ke itu a fairytale ? kan ? kan ?

" Aku terima nikahnya dgn si pulanah binti si pulan dengan mas kahwinnya RM.. "

Itu adalah tersurat . Yang tersiratnya ialah ,


" Aku tanggung dosa - dosa si pulanah dari ibu bapanya , apa saja dosa yang dia buat , aku tanggung dan bukan ibu bapanya lagi yang tanggung dan aku tanggung dosa bakal anak-anak aku . Kalau gagal , maka aku fasik , dayus dan aku rela masuk neraka dan Malaikat Malik melibas aku hingga pecah badan aku "

Maka , seharusnya . Fikirlah sedalamnya apabila kita ingin memulakan sesuatu masjid .


And I would like to SHOUT OUT to my Senior , Kak nadia that will be engaged tomorrow ! Yahooooo ! Met me there (:

talk of the day

Have you ever wondered " What is your type of boyfriend that you wish for ? " have you ? have you ? tak kan tak pernah kowt . Me ? I'm still wondered . but , never one person is perfect right ? For my perfect boyfriend that i wish for * glup *

I really love a boyfriend that he would scream " I LOVE YOU "not caring who heard him . He do walks with me in 90 degrees degrees . My hand in one hand and the other side is my bag * sigh * .
He would sing outloud any song even if i say him retarded . But he let's me sing outloud and won't call me weird . He'll sit outside with me on the front door because there is nothing to do and he won't say he's bored once . He'll let me looks like crap , wearing big t'shirt , unmatching shoes but yet he still calls me beautiful * smile * .
He won't scared to dance in front of me or act retarded . He picks his friends over me sometimes . He'll remember our anniversaries before i do . A boy that will never ask what's wrong with me when i'm sad but just make me laugh all-the-way . He will give his sweater even if his freezing and he won't make me feel guilty about it . He do never jealous because he already know i love him more than anything .

This is what I call is LOVE

1st week of semester

I feel the same way . i don't know why but a part of me doesn't really care of her anymore . I'm not a good best friend . The only thing i know , i can't trust her stories because most of her stories are based on her imaginations . I wishes i could be like one but it's hard for me . Thanks you