Shanghai

Goodbye hey you . Jaga diri . Jangan tinggal puasa weh weh weh weh . * laugh *

Ada puasa tinggal tak tahun ni ?

Apa punya soalan lah . Aku teringat kisah hamba allah ni tanya si gades sorang nie . Tahun ni , puasa penuh tak ? Erk , macam bodoh je soalan tu . Sudah gaharu , cendana pula . Sudah tahu , bertanya pula . Aduyaii . Luckily , that girl just diam and tersenyum je . Mungkinmalas untuk berkata - kata . * sigh *

Ramadhan yang ke 8

For the last few months i've been everything . Depressed , angry , jealous , weak , frustrated , scared , alone , confused , exhausted , sad . But never happy . And it's killing me to wait the day i'm gonna feel happy again . The day when i'm actually gonna smile again

p/s : selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan al - mubarak . Agak terlambat untuk ucap tetapi masih awal lagi kan ?

the first of months .

You ask me why i like you ?
It is something that i can't put into words . Maybe it's because you make me happy most of the time . Maybe it's because you make me happy most of the time . Maybe it's because you know how to keep a conversation with me . Maybe it's because you got me thinking about you before i go to sleep , and after i wake up . Maybe i can be myself around you . Maybe it's because you bring the of me . Maybe it's because i can spend hours on the phone talking about the stupidest things . Maybe it's because i can never get enough of you . Maybe it's just because you are being yourself , and i'm slowly falling for you (:

Every night I stay up past 12 , past 1 , etc . Not because I'm not tired . Not because I want to tweak on these social networking sites . Because I am tired , I want to sleep . But I can't because my mind runs like crazy . It over thinks , over analyzes things that I don't want to think about . So , I purposely keep myself awake and tire myself out so that when I do finally lie in bed , i fall asleep and my thoughts don't keep me up .

dream

woke up at 4 am for no reason than i miss you ..

I just want you to know , that not talking to you everyday is really affecting me in bad way :(

i need a break

It was true

Someday , we'll forget the hurt , the reason we cried and WHO cause us pain . We will finally realize that the secret of being free is not revenge , but letting things unfold in their own way and own time . After all , what matters is not the first , but the last chapter of our life which shows how well we ran the race .
So , SMILE , LAUGH , FORGIVE , BELIEVE , and LOVE ALL OVER AGAIN .

i didn't hava a chance to tell you

The perfectionists imperfections

Socially Awkward Situation #1:
You’re in class and you want to cough. Some other guy just coughed, now you have to wait.

Socially Awkward Situation #2:
Someone calls in your direction. You raise your hand to wave. It turns out they weren’t calling you. You casually fake a head-scratch. It’s too late; everyone saw.

Socially Awkward Situation #3:
You sit down on a chair and it makes a fart-like noise. You attempt to make the noise several more times so that everyone knows you didn’t really fart.

Socially Awkward Situation #4:
You hold the door open for one person. Now you have to hold it for everyone behind them; if you let go, they’ll think you’re selfish and un-mannered.

Socially Awkward Situation #5:
Talk to your date while eating. Accidentally spit a tiny bit of food onto them.

Socially Awkward Situation #6:
“Excuse me, do you stock ________?”
But they don’t work there.

Socially Awkward Situation #7:
He goes in for a high-five. You go in for props.

Socially Awkward Situation #8:
Walk into the washroom and the stalls are full; pretend you only came here to wash your hands then leave.

Socially Awkward Situation #9:
You check your phone because you have nothing to say to the conversation.

Socially Awkward Situation #10:
Someone comes online; you say “hey”, they go offline.

Socially Awkward Situation #11:
The person in front is walking slightly slower than you are. You walk at an uncomfortable speed to get past them.

Socially Awkward Situation #12:
Someone you vaguely know is walking in front of you. You maintain distance.

Socially Awkward Situation #13:
You say “hi” to someone. It comes out as a whisper.

Socially Awkward Situation #14:
You fart and sneeze at the same time.

hahaha .

Socially Awkward Situation #9:OMG! alwaysss :))

. I have an immerse jealousy for pretty people .

i don't know how to explain it

But everyday i’ve been feeling more and more alone .
it makes me wonder why i was put on this earth .
i just want to find a reason , and i will never stop looking until i find one.

Sometimes I honestly feel like the ugliest, most selfish, unoriginal and unintelligent girl in the whole wide world. Like everything bad stops at me, and I’m the limit.

Sometimes when you're online in facebook and currently not doing anything , I wonder if you're waiting for me to talk to you but , i'm here waiting for you to talk to me .

make a change

New . fresh . more vibe . And more energy . (:

Am i your burden ? Yes you are . you are HIS burden ( stupid of you )

you should warning me .

Life is cruel . Yet still have some sweetness in it . I prefer salt than sugar . I prefer experience than intelligent . It is more worth it . Lately i've been doing some stupid research for myself . It was ugly things when you know that the worst part of you . Your weekness . I should know it before . I was half dying before because i just didn't realize it . Keep getting stupid everyday i get through the day maybe . * sigh *

Okay . okay . I'm doing way tooooo good right now .
BF ? nahhhhhh! that is the only word i can say .
FRIEND ? errr . did you mean a GOOD friend or a VERY GOOD friend ? * sigh *
still doesn't get it . There is a different between those type of people lah . ( oh ! i'm a malaysian people so, i will keep saying LAH ) * sigh *
see ? see ? I'm getting stupid everyday . My blog getting dull . I should clean it more often right ? right ? * sigh *

Oh! mama ! when i'm gonna grow up and be a women! WHEN LAHHHHHHH ????
I'm soo homesick right now . I miss the smell of my bed , my room . My own bathroom . My new clean clothes that are easy to wash . Oh! how i miss it soooooooo fuckin much ! Can i be back this monday and be back right here on the next month ? * laugh *

Idk what i keep bubbling about in this post . I just following the flow of my head . Right now i keep remembering the songs from metric . erghhhh! How i love HER voice soo much ! Please be my soulmateeeeeeeeeeeeeee ? * desperately *

Just stop it . end

Chuck bass, I can’t believe you died. I actually cried.
But you’re still the hot fuckass sexy seductive womanizer ever.
RIP the sexiest CAST, chuck bass.

august august august .