i miss you .
i miss you .
i miss you .
i miss you .
i miss you .

. the end .

is your heart start melting?

i was wondering why is it hard to be in love and to be friends?
that is two difference statement and situation .

Love is the one that only you can in love with . the one that i could shared my love and story without any second thought . love is beautiful . you can feel it when you have touch it . you can feel it when it start touch your heart even with a pieces or smaller things .

Friends is people that we need to share our laughter . sadness when we are down . people that will be there when you are inneed . end .

actually it as the same situation and character but who are they in your life that is the question?

I should chose both to have in my life . both creating important part in my life .

There is part when i need the you to cheer me up . i need you to alter back my happiness . you are the light that shine my day .

And there is somehow i need them to accompany me in many ways . to share my laugh with . to gain knowledge with .

nahh! abaikan post diatas . idk what im trying to say actually . * sigh *

i was alone . sadness is my food . tears is my drink .

i was hoping you could understand me . you always on top baby . there is sometimes i wish you just don't push me ha way . i was too emotional disturb when you do that . i was hopnig again you could understand the same as i understand you . why you never ever try to reverse back the same question you asking me to you ?

who are you in my heart?
am i important to you?

you are important to me elmo . you are my heartbeat . my lighting star . my tiang . there is nothing more i could say to you .
yes, i should admit that friend is always on top of my list . from the 1st knowing you, i keep saying that to you if you can remember . and the same i was saying that to you . i was hoping you understand that time and there is no more arguing about the same thing but unfortunately ) :

Hey ho! Lets Go!

Sometimes I just wish things would turn out perfect. But I guess this is how its supposed to be.

I should really start blogging again. Lately I haven't been much use. Wasting my time watching old re-runs of Supernatural , collecting dust , gaining a few extra pounds . * sigh *
Its time to get my life in order, next year is my year.
Lets start small . Maybe a list, yeah a list .

Things to do before started new semester

1. Clean out closet
2. Alter clothes that need, well Altering.
3. Unpack my junk from the old house.
4. Paint my study wall.
5. Do something with my room to make it less boring.
6. Make glycerine flowers and gingerbread cookies.
7. Re-arrange my study chart.
8. Get my books in order.
9. Get everything sorted for next year (stationary, uniforms, etc)

Things to do in order to make myself a better person

1. Lose 10 kgs ( -.- )
2. Wake up at a decent hour.
3. Sleep at a decent hour, I am not an owl.
4. Drink at least 8 glasses of water, to stop getting dehydrated.
5. Stop being so sensitive
6. Spend more time with elmo .
   
7. Stop wasting time
8. Restrict myself to only a few episodes of supernatural / house each day
9. Construct a daily schedule for next year
10. Follow the goddamn schedule.
11. Make amends with people whom I am not friends with any more.
12. Get my life back on track
13. Be more positive about myself.
14. Spend more time outside in the fresh air.
15. Eat healthily
16. etc etc

did The ice stop your heart from loving me?

Argue, argue and argue . Basically that's what we do on a daily basis . I don't know whats gotten into us but we keep on arguing over the pettiest of things . Everything single thing that i do isn't right, same goes for him as well . Oh how i would love for us to be okay, like old times :)
it's hard for us i admit, but i know that we're gonna be just fine , kan b? :)

lying to you was the hardest thing to do , but i guess that is for the best . And that was all i could do.

There is no words unless this .

Sorry, I’m so sorry

Sorry for making you mad
Sorry for everything I said
Sorry for lying to you
Sorry, I’m so sorry

Sorry if I disappointed you
Sorry if I hurt you
Sorry for everything
Sorry, I’m so sorry

Sorry that I liked you
Sorry that you did
Sorry for turning in to a which
Sorry, I’m so sorry

Sorry that I loved you
Sorry that you didn’t
Sorry that we had to fight
Sorry, I’m so sorry

Sorry for still loving you
Sorry you don’t love me
Sorry for ever loving you
Sorry, I’m so sorry

retarded di pagi hari .

Its 6 am yo! And i'm still awake . And i will having a test for economic paper tomorrow morning . Mengundang kan? kan? ergh! haha

breakin all the rules .

you and i , are always fighting and arguing about everything
we're like a fox and a tiger striving and contending for any food we see
but after every quarrel and battle or words that we begin and finish
in the end , an intimate feeling and a closeness
inside is still standing between you and me

and because this is real and this is good ,
it warms the inside just like it should
but most of all , its built to last <3


Happy Birthday and Happy 1 year and 9 months anniversary , elmo :)
I Love You <3

kan? kan? kan?

liar .

Tak payah bajet kau kenal aku lah en , mcm sial . Life sendiri bosan sangat ke smpai nak try sibuk life orang ? Aku sabar je ni . Kau tgk , aku cari kau smpai lubang cacing lah sial . Reliable source konon , mcm puki anjing . Reliable ye , tak kisah ah jeopardise relationship someone pn , cm creek creek je ? berani cakap , tak berani tunjuk muka eh ? nampak sangat , AYAM .


Well im not that mean , i stll have my soft side , sorry , i lashed it all on you guys but 'ive got my own reasons , imagine if u were in my place , and everyone's like talking and spreading wrong shits about u . mana tk mengamuk ? and once again . i'm sorry and i hope to be forgiven . and oh you , kata kawan ? ego besar mana pun , cakap sorry sekali pun takpelah -_- itsokay take yr time , ego kau besar , aku tau . nasib baik aku sayang kau

I can turn it .

lying to you was the hardest thing to do , but i guess this for the best . And thaat ws all i could do to make you hate me .

age is just a number .

Happy birthday dear Abdul Sariman .

My elmo . My Lidi . My hearbeat . My soulmate .


You are the MOST important and precious things that i own . Never and ever can be replace it .
Happy birthday dear . You are now old and you have to take a good care of me okay lidi! ( :
I Love You <3>

the moon shall dance together .

There is sometimes that i do miss having fun and chill with you . Even we only knowing each other less than a month , but there is a chemistry between us . You are like a friends that i've been search for a long time . Having a friend like you , make it my life more enjoyable . We always fighting about something that not even realistic . You keep treat me eventhough you are busy . You just there .
But there is some part that WE JUST NOT MEANT TOGETHER .

. end .

emptyness

There is some part that i do wish that you could understand me and there is some part that i do wish that i could understand you . I should be moreeee matured about being type of a girl that you want . Im just being soo bored when im around you rite?
Getting you sick or headache when im with you .
I am being so childish . Im sorry making you stuck with me .
But there is some part that i do miss the old of me .
There is some part that i do miss you so much .
There is the reason for this problem . Its a karma rite ? i hate karma! fuck!
Shouldnt be so harsh rite? okay . keeping it clear and just too fill the emptyness that i've been getting lately .

I LOVE YOU DEAR BLOG ( :
MY SUPER DUPER BFF THAT I HAVE ( :

LIDI sayang (:

guess what? it has been 1 year and 8 months .

How fast time flies, huh? i would like to say that i love you. I know i've said it over and over again, and i mean it each time. There's no end to this. I love you for loads of reasons, too many reasons. You're just so damn, perfect ( :

i still think it is way too early, but i feel like i've known you forever. Inside and out. Today, since it's been 1 year and 8 months and i'm gonna tell you 5 out of 1000 reasons why i love you, abdul sariman ( :

1. You put me first, before yourself. i feel like i'm that one special person, very special.

2. You make me smile. during the highs and the lows, you're the one person that i can count on to make me smile so brightly. You never let me down.

3. All the efforts you've put into this relationship. Despite my flaws, my shortcomings, you keep on trying to make it work. All the things you do just to make me happy.

4. You don't fake anything, brutally honest, in a good way. not once you lied to me. And i deeply appreciate your honesty.

5. The fact that we could be miles apart, days without seeing each other, i know without a doubt i am the only one and and i have nothing to worry about. I know that you'd come around, each time

piece of me

abdul sariman is the best lover ever!
1 year and 8 months dude!


\baby, thanks for the perfect day. i loving you elmo! HAHA!.

thanks for the wonderful memories

tweenty is still a digit number .

I'm 20 yo . * sigh *
no more teens life . Life start at 20 . Here you will learn everything . You will start carry sooo much burden that you just wish that " CAN I GO BACK TO SCHOOL LIFE PLEASE? ".
There is still so many things i will learn . Learn to accept the reality and the recycle of surrounding .
Just imagine at 20 , you maybe at the dumpster searching for some food or weed .
At 20 , you maybe have 2 child or more .
It maybe happen .
just pray i wouldnt .