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Kalau orang tanya aku macam mana nak lupakan orang yang kita sayang ?
Aku akan diam tersentak , berfikir dan berfikir sebab logik akal pun susah nak jawab soalan itu . Walau macam mana pun kau cuba untuk lupakan . Susah .
Aku pernah hentak kepala dekat dinding mohon agar hilang ingatan senang lupa semua benda . Paling tidak pun hilang ingatan untuk jangka masa yang pendek pun aku dah bersyukur .
Tapi kena ingat yang itu cuma akan berlaku dalam "Movie" sahaja . Bukan di realiti .
Susah .

Susah .

Susah .

Sepuluh orang tanya aku soalan yang sama dan aku akan jawab "Aku masih tak dapat lupakan dia"
Itu pasti . Mungkin agak bodoh kalau orang pandang aku sebab kau lah yang dibuang , dicampak , dihina dan dipergunakan tapi kau masih dekat situ "mengingati" .
Ingat setiap inci kenangan dan janji yang pernah disulamkan .

Aku ralat .

Still counting

Dear Elmo ,

I know you are reading and catching up every entry . The only thing I want you to know that I try hardly to win your heart back . Even if I feel like I will never get the chance back but there is no wrong in trying right ? To just know that you will always be deep in the heart and someday when I get someone to replace your place dont worry because for all this time you are the only best thing ever happened to me .


Honestly , I miss all about us all about you . And I miss talking to someone which are everything to me . Talk about memories there are a lot of it I cant just describe . Just let it be for you and me . I still got our picture , the birthday present , your message , the train's ticket , the song and anything that reminds me of you .


I just need a thing .


Explain me , why you go ?

Flash - back

Looking back on everything , I still remember his smile . I wish things didn't end so soon , and turn back time for a while . No matter how much it hurts , I still love him so . A part of me needs him so much , Can't seem to let him go . Knowing I won't be able to see him ,Makes my heart cry out in pain . I can't believe we won't talk anymore . The thought makes me wanna go insane . He was my reason for waking up . For the smile you see on my face . Going a single day without him,
makes me feel so out of place . I was afraid of opening up . Now I'm afraid of the next day . Whenever I see him one last time , i'm terrified of what he may say . I know tomorrow will hurt , But the tears will fade away . Life is too short for regrets . There will be a brighter day . But when I see him one last time , I won't know what to do ? *sigh*

When he tells me that last goodbye , I'll whisper , "I already miss you.."

Just sit back and smile .

No need for revenge -

Just sit back and wait . Those that hurt you will eventually screw up all by themselves .

And if you are lucky , God will let you watch :)

If only ,

Kalau lah segalanya semudah ini .

Pastinya banyak VCD player di rumah aku .

Penakut

Aku cuba fahamkan setiap gambar dalam hidup ,
kerana di setiap gambar, ada lagu .