HIM:((

currently sad:((
ta penah rasa camnie
HIM...
tengah sakit terlantar dekat hospital
his havin somethin wrong with his TULANG BELAKANG:((
sepatutnya treatment hari nie da habis da tp
got somethin wrong with that FUCKIN ASS HOSPITAL!!grrrrrrrrrrr
"PIHAK HOSPITAL MAKLUMKAN YANG PIHAK DIORANG FORGETTIN NA MASUKKAN SPINALFLUIDS KAT TULANG DIER" :((

i thought it's juz a little bit problem but at the same time,
i still worried:((

a day before,
WE HAVE A HUGE FIGHT
i got fed up with HIM a bit
but it's not mean that i didn't love him anymore
I ALWAYS LOVE HIM
MADLY, DEEPLY AND HARDLY :((

at 11.37 pm
he call me after the treatment
before that he messaging me tellin that he wanted to hear my voice to relief his pain:((
then he call me

ALL THAT I CAN HEAR IS HIS BREATH YANG TURUN NAEK DENGAN LAJU:((
HE CAN'T TALK AT ALL BECOZ SAKIT SANGAT
HE TRY TO TALK BUT I CAN'T HEAR ANYTHIN:((
AND THEN, SUDDENLY MY TEARS DROP:((
I CAN'T TAKE IT TO HEAR HIS VOICE ANYMORE
IT KINDA HURTIN ME TO HEAR IT:((
HIS TRULY SICK :((
AND I CAN'T DO ANYTIN TO HELP
FELL LIKE A HOPELESS:((
then, the call has been off by hin
HE also crying..
i can hear it:((

then,he messaging me tellin that HIS FINE:((
DIE TIPU!!
DIE TIPU!!
TIPU juz to make me fell HE GONNA BE FINE:((
I HATE HIM FOR TELLIN THAT!!:((

HE tell me that he can't talk much coz his wearin a mask for pernafasan:((
oh!dear...:((
it's was terribly a nightmare when hear it:((

TO HIM,THE ONE TAT I LOVED,
ABDUL SARIMAN:(

I'M SORRY DEAR FOR HURTIN YOU
I DIDN'T MEANT IT:(
IT WAS FULLY MY FAULT DEAR:((
MY EGO :((
IT TRULY MY FAULT:((
I'M HOPIN TO BE RIGHT BESIDE YOU
TO TAKE CARE OF YOU RIGHT NOW:((
B...
take a good care of yourself okie:((
i will right here waitin for your news dear:(

LOVE SYAZ:(