it's thursday....

okie..okie..
it's thursday..
errrrrrrrrrrr...
B O R E D..........like HELL!!
ngeeeeeeeeeee...

anyway..
i'm gonna talk about cup cake(:
hehehe



benda ini terlintas dekat fikiran aku lepas aku tengah cupcake kawan-kawan aku punya birthday
such sweet cupcake..
i want it!!)):




sedap jew aku tengok cupcake diorang..
jeles pown ada gak)):
ta pe
i can handle it..
sekarang aku sedang searching bahan-bahan na buat cup cake nie
hopefully ta jumpa okie
hahahaha:PP
and confirm lar ta akan menjadi punya cup cake aku tue
hahaha:D

i'm too scared

i'm scared of a lot of things.

• heights
• really big spiders and cookcroach
  
• flying/planes
• rejection
• drowning
• chaos
• catastrophe
• hairy chests
• getting married
• getting divorced
• pregnancy
• burning alive
• getting really lost
• small spaces
• car accidents
• dark alleys
• puking
• having bills I can't pay for
• etc....

As you can see, I'm scared of A LOT of things.
But I don't really worry about these fears,
and most of them I face.
I kill cookcroach, I go on planes, I swim, I ask for directions, etc.
Then I wondered why I worry so much and don't face emotional fears.
I think most people generally have some of the same fears I have.
The biggest one is rejection.
That applies to so many things from just meeting a new
person to bringing up an issue in a committed relationship.
I guess it's pretty hard to say your true feelings because
you are unsure if the reaction will be in your favor.
No one wants their feelings to be rejected.

However, so so so so so so many times I've been told
"I never said anything because I assumed you'd say no, you're so intimidating".

My instant reply is "That's so stupid, I liked you! Now I don't!"
but there have been times when something bothered me, and I don't like to complain at all costs so I say nothing and then I hear "Why didn't you tell me?? I wouldn't have cared!"

We all have your insecurities, I've really been watching people let their chances go by lately.
I've realized there's nothing to lose when you say how you feel.
If it's for the first time, do you want to get to know someone who won't give you the time of day anyway?
And if you're telling a significant other, they'll listen and
want you to be happy with them if they love you.
Either way, it's not that scary.

Saying how you feel is nothing to be afraid of,
I think if it turns out badly then that person isn't who you should be emptying your chest on.
I will do ANYTHING to avoid confrontation,
and I don't trust people will my feelings so I have a pretty hard time admitting how I feel.
i'm sorry(:

kerinduan itu is so much pain

nah!! amik aku tibai tajuk dier ROJAK terus!! hahaha:D
currently aku tengah online myspace and tengah online with syazzyness
mula-mula cakap pasal cuppcakes yang dia buat untuk celebrate befday MEL hahaha:D gedikk jew na aku tengok kat page dier hahaha:D
anyway, HEPI BESDAY MEL(:
JAGE SYAZZY ELOK-ELOK TAW!! haha

then,after da merepek-merepek, aku tanya dia bila mahu pulang cuti?
mula-mula okie jew then da lama tue, start sedih-sedih pulak!! adeiss)):

commentnya camnie, yang BOLD nie AKU tulis dekat SYAZZY.
yang TA BOLD TUE, SYAZZY tulis dekat AKU(:

• babe!!
• ble maw pulang):
• busan wey duk rumah):

ahahahahah

lambat lg dodol!!!

khamis neyh aku baleklaaa

bawak bersabo:))

• kamis? ouh cuti raya ea? bpe ari wey?

kejap jew weyhhh

selasa after raya aku baleklaaa cnie balek

• kejap btol sempit pnye cuti uniten!! adeiss.. hahaha:D
  

vavian kaw!!

dush3

weyh aku rendu kaulaaa:((

• hahaha:DD aku pown rinduu kaw); na hug)):

*hugssss

kalo hug betowl lg best kan syaz

macam old times

haihhh

miss those days

• a'ah): kaw nie.. sje jew wat ak na nanges jew)):

hahahahah

aku selalu nangs ble ingat masa dulu:((


oh!!syazzy yg gedikk!! kaw nie saja jew na wat aku cdey.. ngee.. rinduuu kaw..)): rinduu all of them)): ngee.. I HATE IPOH!! COZ IT MAKE ME MISS MY SCHOLLMATE)):

suka hati aku larh!!

yes!!
aku memang suka tulis blog aku macam-macam warna

it's make me happy to do it!!

suka hati aku larh!!
ini blog aku....
aku suka COLOURFUL
memang aku punya blog macam KELLY-NG pown
sukasuki larh!!
aku memang suka!
tak salah if aku nak buat macam nie
ada salah kew?
aku kena saman or denda ke if ak tulis macam nie?
ngeeee..

it was supposed to be written 29nov 08(:

sorry for the late writting it):
29 nov it was JAZMIN, my bestfriend birthday
and them celebrate it
and i can't celebrate with them
sedih));
rasa sedih sangat
tgk gambar-gambar diorang taken,
i'm so damn jeles!!
jeles!!
ngeee....
i guess it was my fault..
hmmm...
i miss them)):

anyway dear JAZMIN BT.RAMLI,
HEPI BIRTHDAY dear
suda 18 dah!!
huhu(:
sorry for everytin..):
hope hidup diberkati..
dilindungi(:
stay frens dear!!
lebiu!!
(:

just finished it):

akhirnya!!
aku berjaya menghabiskan citer nie..
it was titile "I LITRE OF TEARS"
truly sad story)):
almost rumah nie jadi banjir aku buat!!
hahaha:P
and it was based on TRUE STORY
i has watch it before but suda lupa
SHORT MEMEORY sikit!!(:
luckily my bf reminded me(:
tenks dear(:

it's truly touched story)):

final episod,
aku terbaca somethin yang ditulis oleg produksi drama tue
it said,

thank you everyone who has followed this beautiful story with us,
we have been laughed and cried over and over along with ikeuchi's(the family of the person) and friends.

we hope that whatever you walk of life,
you leave here with a little more warmth in your heart,
and a little more courage to face another day

next time you your loved one,
tell them how special there are.
next time you see a friends,
thank them for always be there for you

life is what you can make of it.treasute it!!
)):