i don't know how to explain it

But everyday i’ve been feeling more and more alone .
it makes me wonder why i was put on this earth .
i just want to find a reason , and i will never stop looking until i find one.

Sometimes I honestly feel like the ugliest, most selfish, unoriginal and unintelligent girl in the whole wide world. Like everything bad stops at me, and I’m the limit.

Sometimes when you're online in facebook and currently not doing anything , I wonder if you're waiting for me to talk to you but , i'm here waiting for you to talk to me .

make a change

New . fresh . more vibe . And more energy . (:

Am i your burden ? Yes you are . you are HIS burden ( stupid of you )

you should warning me .

Life is cruel . Yet still have some sweetness in it . I prefer salt than sugar . I prefer experience than intelligent . It is more worth it . Lately i've been doing some stupid research for myself . It was ugly things when you know that the worst part of you . Your weekness . I should know it before . I was half dying before because i just didn't realize it . Keep getting stupid everyday i get through the day maybe . * sigh *

Okay . okay . I'm doing way tooooo good right now .
BF ? nahhhhhh! that is the only word i can say .
FRIEND ? errr . did you mean a GOOD friend or a VERY GOOD friend ? * sigh *
still doesn't get it . There is a different between those type of people lah . ( oh ! i'm a malaysian people so, i will keep saying LAH ) * sigh *
see ? see ? I'm getting stupid everyday . My blog getting dull . I should clean it more often right ? right ? * sigh *

Oh! mama ! when i'm gonna grow up and be a women! WHEN LAHHHHHHH ????
I'm soo homesick right now . I miss the smell of my bed , my room . My own bathroom . My new clean clothes that are easy to wash . Oh! how i miss it soooooooo fuckin much ! Can i be back this monday and be back right here on the next month ? * laugh *

Idk what i keep bubbling about in this post . I just following the flow of my head . Right now i keep remembering the songs from metric . erghhhh! How i love HER voice soo much ! Please be my soulmateeeeeeeeeeeeeee ? * desperately *

Just stop it . end

Chuck bass, I can’t believe you died. I actually cried.
But you’re still the hot fuckass sexy seductive womanizer ever.
RIP the sexiest CAST, chuck bass.

august august august .